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only for the wild at heart

guess what guys i just got into a car accident. fucking collided into this oncoming car who was breaking the red light. crashed travis into the other car and then a lamp post and the airbags came out and there was smoke and all that shit. i thought i died. fucking scary. ambulance/police came to send me to A&E, its now 8am and i just got home, spent 6 hours at the hospital. i'm fine now, bruises and cuts and minor fracture cant walk and a one week MC but other than that i'm alright. thank God. really. Y was in the car with me and thankfully he's fine too. love you all and feel free to text me i'll be bed ridden anyways. haha. i feel damn sad for travis though he'll be at the workshop for a month a least sigh :( love ya'all lots.

gimme gimme gimme more

ive completely neglected blogging but there's just toomuch toomuch going on in my life right now. and you know, im really loving it. thats all i shall comment on for now. take care y'all. find my new blog if you can. hahaha.

xxx

i remember

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞...


- 知足, 五月天

i want a girl who does cocaine

was just reading through my blog entries from my old old blog (yes i am that free haha), and found that i wrote this when i was 18:

"i hate growing up. but more than that i hate having new responsibilities, having the burden of age, dreadfully coupled with its physical manifestations; and i am deeply, deeply in love with my youth. as my UCAS personal statement says: i am young and i am alive; i am 18 - a glorious age, and i can't imagine any other way of living other than recklessly. sometimes i am sorry that i broke hearts along this quest.

i have a feeling i will live fast and die young.

or maybe i will read this 20 years down the road; 38, settled down with a family, kids and a job, and scoff wistfully at my idealism."

funny how 3 long long years have passed, and little has changed. i still hate growing up and growing old, hate having new responsibilities, and i wonder where the past three years have gone to. have i even used this time constructively to mature and improve myself? i've lost and wasted this time to falling(s) in love, to the pursuit of a substandard university degree(s), to basking in my self-centeredness, to letting the things i treasure most slip away. i don't want this. i miss and love the idealistic me i was at age 18, but as the saying goes, i have got to start acting my age.

:'(

i can't believe school started. feels totally weird to be back in class, attending lectures, meeting school people, taking notes, downloading handouts from vista.... it totally did not seem like three months plus have passed. seems like not long ago we were mugging crazily for the exams and getting all stressed out. and guess what, its going to repeat alllllllll over again. blaahhhh. give me back my summer holidays! :(

we were made for summer dreaming

HELLO DARLINGS! i'm back. shanghai was shanghai, nice and all, but oh man hongkong was wonderfully fun. think endless glasses of moet, champagne, absinthe shots (those were killlller), dimsum, cafes, lovely hongkong scenary, kickass posh apartment... and basically EVERYTHING was free thanks to the banking interns i hung out with there, who are currently drawing USD$5000/month. woohoo thats the high life baby. 5k isnt that much, but keep in mind we're all college interns, and compare that to the SGD$250/month i earn in shanghai. ummmm. hahaha.

so now im back in my home sweet home. so far after touching down in sg, ive caught 3 movies, went to the beach once, went for one stayover, one engagement party, clubbed once, pubbed twice, played lots of pool, had a bbq steamboat buffet, and am fed plenty of yummy food at lunch and dinner. and i have yet to finish meeting up with all my darling groups of friends. my busy lovely absolutely singaporean life is back, and i am TOTALLY loving it.

:)



p.s. when i left shanghai, my total check-in baggage (not counting hand carry) was 55kg. i flew on cathay and the limit was 25kg. thank god for the nice hk lady passenger who agreed to help me share my weight from shanghai to hk, and the two nice sg girls who helped me share my weight from hk to singapore. ETERNALLY GRATEFUL <3 <3

我为什么说再见

the things i like about shanghai:

1. my lovely housemates gx, roxie, nipun and hl
2. the friends i have and met here
3. shengjian!! and oysters haha
4. slacking online in the office/playing minesweeper haha
5. my nice chinese colleagues
6. alone time at lunch to catch up on my reading
7. cheap great shopping
8. clubbing/pubbing :p
9. superrrr cheap massages/manicures/hair treatments + cheap everything in general
10. typical touristy places like the bund/lujiazui/xintiandi
11. select cantonese/japanese cuisine which can be very very nice
12. my cosy room and bed


hahaha now that i have 3 days left in shanghai i guess i should count my blessings. its been a nice 3 months here really, but farewell shanghai, its time for me to go :)

the beautiful and the damned

hello honeys. another weekend's passed and this weekend i've once again amazingly managed to spend the amount that i earn in a month. thank god i'm going home seriously. being here makes me need ALOT of retail therapy, and when that happens, i just go out and shop and shop and shop. oopsie. haha.

anyways im kissing the horrible public transport, chinese language, and freaking gross weather goodbye in 11 days. no wonder they say more murders happen in summer. the temperature is a bloody 38 freaking degrees, enough to make me kill someone. after this its hongkong for me, where ill meet the lovely qiuting, qihan, and weiming (EMAIL ME), grab some alone travel/relax time, and then its home sweet home. :) oh yes, im skipping taiwan i think, even though the bf's mum realllly wants me to visit her (she offered to get air tickets for me and let me use her chauffeur if i go). too weird to go see her without him around, and i don't think i can stand another week of speaking chinese, really.

my travel route for 4 months: singapore - thailand - singapore - hongkong - shanghai - hangzhou - shanghai - singapore - shanghai - hongkong - singapore. ive taken so many plane rides i dont even feel air pressure in my ears anymore when the plane takes off and lands. :p

home is where the heart is :)

i always thought i hated singapore, but when my plane touched down in changi airport on friday, and i saw that familiar yellow-balled tower symbol of the airport, i knew then, that that is home.

my heart belongs with the sunny hot weather, bakchormee suppers, japanese food buffet dinners, durians, bubbleteas, my baby doggy, my beautiful mother, daddy, lovely siblings, the best hubby, great ptms and friends, the endless love and concern that they give me, travis my car, my princess bed at home, cindy, parkway parade, movies at orchard road, shopping at takashimaya. and nothing, no one, and no where else can replace all these that i have.

i'm now back in shanghai after 5 days of nonstop singaporean living (refer to above). for all who asked, the cousin's wedding at fullerton was wonderful, and i can't wait to be home again. :)

i finished 'Special Topics in Calamity Physics (Marisha Pessl)' (a well-reviewed "prep-school-confidential-thriller" - google it) over the weekend. i've been hooked to it for about two weeks, and it was a riveting read, definitely. i really want to love it, for its flashy cleverness, quirks, dense (though sometimes overbearing but not always) use of creative metaphors, interesting plot, the plenty of references to great authors whom i love, and the absolutely endearing characters (mainly Blue and Dad).

but sadly, the ending does not deliver what it promises. i did not like the way it ended one bit, and i admit i spent a night crying over the end (just ask houston haha). we are strung along an entrancing storyline, leashing us in, making us vulnerable to its twists and turns, making us fall in love with its characters through and through, and then there is the sudden finish. there is no closure. sure, Blue solves the mysteries, but what good does it do her? why must her admirable intelligence be in the end her burden? her lesson learnt at the end is a flimsy "be happy to be alive" aphorism, frail at best, nothing compared to the journey of a novel we have just been through.

anyway. i still recommend it really. please fall in love with Blue and her erudite dad (i really loved him) like i did. please be enthralled by the storyline and be unable to put down the book for days. but don't expect too much from anyone at all in the book, and end up becoming disappointed like i did. :(

sweet dreams are made of these

i just watched the video my lovely family made for me, which houston brought over from sg. its so sweet and i love them and miss them very very much. they're even paying about $1k just to fly me over to sg for 4 days next week because they miss me. i cant wait to be back, and i know i'm really really loved :) :)




p.s. on that note, i went crazy shopping yesterday for them, total damage this week: RMB$2000. oops. haha.

p.p.s. hubs is flying back to sg tomorrow. even though we'll meet again one week later, i will still miss him terribly. boohoo :'( hahaha.

the boyfriend is here so...

we definitely have tons of catching up to do :p

hahaha. well its funny to be blogging about this now that he's only left with a few days in shanghai, but hopefully this explains my disappearance from this blog. the past two weeks have been a whirlwind of fun, laughter, and the usual drama that stalks us in whichever part of the world we go. haha.

a recap of the days spent with him, lest it slips my mind:
saturday: yummy lunch at wujiang, ktv, mahjong + homecooked lovely dinner at kai's, specially prepared by kai and his gf :)
sunday: the tailors, shopping arcade dinner at superbrandmall, lovely chillout at lujiazui, across the bund
monday: crazyyyyy shopping at qipu where we blew about 700yuan, dinner at wujiang, walk the walking street, having our portrait done at the bund
tuesday: home for a lovely homecooked dinner by hubby :) yumyumyum.
wednesday: MANDY AND TZING arrived to visit me! i love them so. we took them to walking street and to the bund. oh and we also went for a super good body massage! :)
thursday: all 4 of us shopping and hanging out at superbrand and lujiazui, before going home to watch my current favorite taiwanese drama. teehee
friday: the girls are off to beijing!! dinner at ajisen with hubby + foot reflexology + midnight ktv till dawn, literally
saturday: lovely lovely dinner at xintiandi + great clubbing at attica
sunday: cleaned up the house in the day, dinner at wujiang, games and shopping at people's square
yesterday: back to the tailors again, visit to jingan temple and crazy shopping again, japanese cuisine buffet dinner, home to watch dvds. we blew a total of 900yuan yesterday haha.

and it is now tuesday, and i'm counting down the hours before i am released from work. tonight we're planning for the huangpu river cruise. yay! i'm having the time of my life when he's here really :) he's been the nicest, sweetest hubby ever, flying all the way here to see me, sending me to work every morning, meeting me during my lunchbreaks, coming back to the office to pick me up again after work, paying for my things, helping me settle my various air ticket stuff, helping me clean up my house, cooking dinner for me, and just generally being patient and kind. i've said it before and i'll say it again, i know im blessed :)


p.s. i'd say i'll really miss him once he flies back to sg tentatively on friday (he'll postpone if he gets the air tickets though that possibility looks bleak), but i am most probably flying back to sg myself in another 1.5 weeks. hohoho. its for my cousin's wedding which my parents dont want me to miss (and also cos i know everyone misses me terribly at home haha!). i'll only be back for a couple of days before i fly back to shanghai though, but if i have time i will definitely call a few of you out (you know who you are). MUCH LOVE.

i left you by the house of fun

omg love me please. after years and years of waiting, i finally bothered to UPLOAD PICTURES! here you go. totally random and from all over the place/world. hahaha.

my loveeeely sisters and i with our icecreams :) miss them tons!!

and............... my BABY BOY!!

Troy Baby Prince Happy WoofyII. i know he's cute but nope he's not a stuffed toy!!!!!!!!!!

baby in the bag i put him in when we go shopping

my cutiepie on my bed

my baby and me

handsome boy :D *beams proudly* now you know why i love him so much! hahaha.

my baby boy laughing happily

and finally, my baby in his favorite bee costume!! he's so cute, he's afraid of heights, so i just put him on the 2nd step here and he refuses to come down by himself :p

one of my favorite pics of hubbybunny, laughing so happily. we were on the amusement park teacups ride thingies, at genting :)

my FAVORITE (and only) BROTHER IN THE WORLD. my favorite boy too. miss him lots. hahaha so cute ehh

hahahaha. my cute brother and i trying on random funny masks.

my vday pressie from hubs. the diamond ring and the cute little stuffed maltese Woofy which later inspired him to buy me Baby (the real thing). hahaha.

(nb: i lost Woofy when we were at bangkok!!! thats why baby is now called WoofyII. boohoo)

cute son of my mum's friend. as big as my teddy bear. how cute. hahahaa

hubby and i at yeeling's party :)

us at chinese new year celebration at mag's place :)

and now some pictures from thailand!!

us at changi airport before departure. it was earlyyy in the morning so give us a break for looking tired! haha

on the plane, sleepy look again. haha

hubby and i at khaosan road, this touristy place for backpackers. we're wearing matching clothes and i'm carrying the HUGE balloon he bought for me. loves it!!!

shopping on the bangkok streets!! HUGE bag of potato chips! yumyum.

we're twins, i know. hahahaha. we prefer to refer to it as 夫妻相 (couple look). hahahaha.

hungry hubbybunny!

me loves A&W!!

garden kisses... at dream world.

hubby and i in the gorgeous swimming pool of ma maison that i was talking about. at the end of the pool is the lovely french cafe, and our room is just beside the pool. come out and jump in. hahaha.

on the bikeee, riding around in pattaya. i absolutely love riding pillion so i'm glad for a bf who knows how to ride a bike :)

hubs and i. i think he looks good in this pic :p

lovely pattaya beach backdrop :)

and now for the longawaited the shanghai pictures!!

gx and hl. my funny guy housemates. hahaha.

us eating at hamburg steak, celebrating hl's birthday :)

our lovely house :)

having our lovely friends over for our house party!!! :)

happy houseguests craving for our dinner!!

zhi and i at this restaurant at people's park. forgot the name. barbarossa i think. pretty isn't it? :)

me and street food. looks like those random neoprint shots where u insert the background of a random shanghai street right? but nope its for real!! hahahah

kenny and i at the bund and pearl of the orient.

the whole group of us trying the SMU starjump thingy at this important shanghai monument. hahaha.

and us again trying out those self-shot thingies... hahaha

us at a xintiandi club. (forgot the name too. oops)

us at club 97 having drinks :)

the girlies at club97.

the boyssss at club97. haha

Shanghai Music Underground (SMU. hahahaha)

the gang at saizeria. this SUPER cheap italian resturant that hl frequents. hahaha. think a plate of pasta for SGD$1.50, a WHOLE pizza for SGD$3, a plate of escagots for SGD$3, tiramisu for SGD$1.50, and so on.....

me on the train to hangzhou!!! i like train rides :)

and in hangzhou.. its all about...

the gorgeous xi hu!!! (westlake)

my housemates and i at xi hu!!

another gorgeous xihu shot!

us on the boat ride in xihu!!

day out at the safari. getting attacked by the ostrich. hahahah

ronald, panda, and me. heehee.

random selfshot at the shoestore. oops. hahahaha

mahjong at kai's place!!!

us at cigar, jazz, and wine celebrating kai's bday. its a gorgeous jazz bar that i'm in love with.

and that darlings, was what we did last night. hang out at the jazz bar i mean. it really was lovely. you know, when i am out of this country and i think back on shanghai, one of the things i'll remember is sitting there, listening to the strains of the wonderful jazz singer, singing norah jones "i waited til' i saw the sun, don't know why i didn't come....."

anywayssss. work is almost done so i should go off now. i started uploading after lunch time (around 1pm) and only just ended, so just think how much time i spent okay! the picture files are huge!! now you know why i don't upload often. so please be grateful!!! hahaha.

alrighty, much love and kisses. (p.s. hubby is flying over tomorrow so i'll be getting plenty of the latter. yay! hahaha)

minesweeper madness

eeeks! im down with a cold. :(

anyways, i love my office very much. my colleagues are great, my boss is wonderfully nice (she's paying for the both of us to attend this 200yuan singaporean get-together function this friday), work is manageable, and in my free time, i get to listen to nice songs and play wonderful MSN minesweeper. haha. i love all of you who bother to entertain me and play minesweeper with me!!

the list i must thank:
hubbybunny
brina
ngzhu
leon
daniel
qihan
guoming
terence
siva
shaner
brandon aw
lyndon
joel
nicholas
piu
yeowza
lp

(not counting those who have left the game halfway because they cannot bear defeat, or tried to play but computer does not support the game. hahaha. i appreciate them too but to name them will make the list far too long)

anyways, my sincere thanks and appreciation to the people above!! haha. without them, work will be terribly boring. thanks for bothering to entertain me. muacks! :)



p.s. so far no one has managed to beat me so please please do challenge me if you think you are up to it :)



much love.

I MISS MY BABY BOY THE MOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hhaha okay maybe not the most, but alotalotalotalotalotalot. baby boy = troy baby prince happy woofyII sweetie honey babypie. everytime im upset or angry, all i have to do is play with him or look at him or even just look at his pictures and i'll feel a little better. trying to beg houston to find a way to bring him over to shanghai for awhile. haha. I LOVE MY DOGGY :( he's the sweetest, most obedient, cutest, most loving, happiest, most cheerful, smartest, most shy, bravest, most loved baby in the universe. will seriously find a way to put his pic up here okay.

anyways, enough of hearing me rave about him. teehee. my no-plans weekend turned out to be a friday night of german movie, 外滩, lovely club at 新天地 where we opened a bottle of chivas and all got supemely HIGH, saturday morning badminton game with colleagues and friends, and a sunday of lovely top-class xiaolongbaos (haha yeah this time we went straight to the top cos we didnt wanna queue. my take: quite expensive and nothing spectacular. not worth it), tailoring my stuff (blew 600yuan but its okay haha), and a nice chinese soup dinner with the nus friends. yays. thats shanghai for you, you never run out of things to do. :)

thank god its friday

lunch treats make my day :) just came back from a lovely buffet lunch treat from our super nice lawyer colleague. yays. and its friday today, the lazyhazy weekend is here, in which i have no plans and do wish to have a nice uncluttered break, the weather today is lovely, i just had 10 hours of gorgeous sleep last night, the boyfriend is flying over in a week, mandie and tzingie are flying over in about 10 days, i have a bottle of white wine and cheese waiting for me at home, and am most probably off to watch a german film at the film festival tonight. life, dahhhling, is looking up. :)

elf cat

halima says: i think id be yelling at u everyday if you live with me
halima says: hahaha
halima says: cos im a neat freak sometimes
*carrie says: yes
*carrie says: i just know EVERYONE will yell at me
halima says: HAHAHAHHA
*carrie says: like even my besties
halima says: *hugs*
halima says: awww you're not so bad im sure
*carrie says: so
*carrie says: conclusion: i need a maid
halima says: NO
halima says: conclusion: learn to be independent
halima says: you can do it
*carrie says: hahahaha
*carrie says: yes!
*carrie says: duno how to explain
*carrie says: the independent part i can manage
*carrie says: and i can manage being alone
*carrie says: doing laundry once a week, etc etc
*carrie says: like just let me have my own messy house to myself
*carrie says: the living with others part, i cant
*carrie says: especially when the "others" involve neat people
halima says: ohh
halima says: true true
halima says: it's like you know your own way around the mess right
halima says: and hehe i do laundry every fortnight when im there


yes. and that concludes my state of affairs. its not that i'm not marriage material okkay. its just that i need an understanding hubby who isnt particular about neatness, and lets me do things my way. houston: PASS. yay. haha.

homesickness

huiyin: eee. be careful of the pollen! one just flew into my nose.
ganann: yeah be careful of hay fever! hahaha.
hanlip: i thought hay fever is the dance floor fever?
huiyin and i unanimously: ERR no? that is SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER!
hanlip: oh. i thought hay fever meant, you go on the dancefloor and keep saying "hey hey hey!", and then you get something like a fever right????


*


I'M BACK!!!!!!!!! from a weekend at hangzhou. pretty xi hu (west lake?) and.... well thats all there is to it actually. hahaha. but yeah i did enjoy the lake. pretty pretty. took a looooong boat ride and walked around admiring the lurvely scenery. not crazy about the train and bus journey there (i have motion sickness), but it turned out alright, so whatevs.

oh and that exchange above happened at xi hu. went hangzhou with a group of nice people. hanlip is my housemate, funny guy. but very very different from me. well he can be quite nice underneath that exterior so i'm just accepting the way things are.

thats my motto for the rest of the time in shanghai actually: acceptance. haha i guess this internship thingy is teaching me quite a few things. ie how to live with difficult and/or different people, that i am not cut out for working life (yet), not cut out for living with others, not cut out for any form of hardship that involves brooms, mops, washing machines, or public transport. lol. its just 7 more weeks anyways, so im gonna grin and bear with it, continue to enjoy the remaining time i have, count my blessings here in shanghai and make the most out of it, look forward to my lovely lifestyle in sg, and make sure i do not put myself in any more such situations in future. thanks for the learning experience though :)

(oh and the fact that houston is coming to visit me in 10 days and staying here for 3 weeks, is making things look much much brighter *grin*)

the future lies here

i am convinced that this medium is the new direction art is heading in.

how absolutely supremely kickass cool.

i wanna be low-key

my blog statistics for today:

Stats by Country

27.96%
Singapore (as of now, the ppl in sg who i know read my blog (i.e. WHO ACTUALLY BOTHER TO COMMENT) are: des, qiuting, tzingie, cheech, maccann, yeeling, and???)

20.43%
France (alban??)

13.98%
Australia (ru? leon? weiqi? halima?)

13.98%
United States (weiming?)

13.98%
China (myself? zhi? sam?)

4.30%
Hong Kong (?????)

2.15%
India (????)

1.08%
Unknown (???)

1.08%
Germany (????)

1.08%
United Kingdom (amanda goh???)

how strange. i have absolutely no idea where all these random countries come from. i'd ask you people to own up, but i'm sure you won't. :p

the one month recap

this was my list on the 28th of april.

"for the three months in shanghai, i resolve to:
1. know myself in greater depth
2. learn new things about the culture every day
3. make new friends
4. lose weight. dear god, please give me back my 39kg weight. thank you. (note: our shanghai condo has a bloody swimming pool, tennis courts, and gym i think, so i damn well better make full use of them haha)
5. finish at least 1 book every two weeks
6. go for massages/foot reflexology at least once every two weeks
7. stop biting my nails so i can go for pretty manicures
8. improve/maintain my complexion. stay fair or get fairer. ABSOLUTELY NO TOUCHING THE SUN.
9. have an outstanding internship :)
10. build a stronger relationship with zhi, my roomie, and sam (WHO I JUST LEARNT IS GOING TO SHANGHAI TOO!!!!!!!!!)
11. keep in touch and continue to love all at home :)
13. learn independance and improve myself
14. coerce all at home/whatever parts of the world you are in, to come and visit me
15. not get killed, raped, or robbed"

one month later, lets see what i have accomplished....


1. know myself in greater depth: i now know i can't clean, can't wash, can't cook. and i need a good capable nice hubby to support me and my needs next time. hahaha.

2. learn new things about the culture every day: learnt all about the squashing and elbow-ing done in the metro. and how they lack personal space. lol. hmm cultural knowledge gained? i think the art museum did the trick... haha.

3. make new friends: my LOVELY colleagues!! and more nice nice smu/nus people :)

4. lose weight. dear god, please give me back my 39kg weight. thank you. (note: our shanghai condo has a bloody swimming pool, tennis courts, and gym i think, so i damn well better make full use of them haha): errr. i stepped on those automated weighing machines that print out a slip with your weight/height/fat analysis, and my analysis was “偏胖＂ (this means "Quite fat" or smth like that). wtf?! and i havent exactly used the facilities in my condo yet, but i will soon i promise!!!! teehee*

5. finish at least 1 book every two weeks：im now on my third book!!!!!!!!!! (okay fine its my third chicklit book, but nevermind that!!)

6. go for massages/foot reflexology at least once every two weeks: yup ive gone for 2 foot reflexs, so im on my way :)

7. stop biting my nails so i can go for pretty manicures: i just got a pedi last week!! and i forgot how nails taste like already *beams*

8. improve/maintain my complexion. stay fair or get fairer. ABSOLUTELY NO TOUCHING THE SUN.: ummm. skin is maintained. cant speak much for the sun. summer is fast approaching. help!!

9. have an outstanding internship :) : i think i have outstanding relationships with my super nice colleagues. but umm outstanding work, cant say much about it :p *crosses fingers*

10. build a stronger relationship with zhi, my roomie, and sam (WHO I JUST LEARNT IS GOING TO SHANGHAI TOO!!!!!!!!!) : well zhi and i have definitely learnt much much more about each other and are still constantly trying to work out the differences. an enlightening experience i must say :) and im DEFINITELY spending more time with these two good friends from smu here in shanghai than i am in singapore. so well done, me!!

11. keep in touch and continue to love all at home :) : oh you won't want to know how much i miss and love them :)

13. learn independance and improve myself : ive travelled and toured around a strange city (whose language i can barely speak) on my own, so i think that speaks something about my newfound independence :) AND AND. ive progressed from one whose parents do not allow her to touch the detergent or go near the house washing machine in her life, to at least doing my own laundry and keeping my room acceptably clean (at least acceptable by my standards, but you know my standards are dubious. hahaa). if that isnt improvement i dont know what it is!! hahaha.

14. coerce all at home/whatever parts of the world you are in, to come and visit me: kenny is coming to visit me tonight for 10 days, hubby and mummy are coming after that, and mandy and tzingie are coming after that. so yup, i think i've succeeded. bwahahaha!!!!!

15. not get killed, raped, or robbed: so far so good i think :D

hospital from hell

so yesterday my whole giddyness thing started again in the office, and my colleagues and boss were so nice and concerned about it, they asked me to stop work and the lovely zhi and my colleague accompanied me to the hospital.

let me tell you, the hospital is HELL. haha.

first there were no queues to speak of, everyone will just keep cutting your queue so its up to poor, sickly you to fight for a space for yourself to see a doctor. next, the nurses are HORRIBLE. the doctor sent me for a blood test and CAT scan of the body and brain.

at the blood test place, because i am freaking scared of needles, i asked the nurse, "tong mah?" ((painful or not)
her reply in chinese: "OF COURSE PAIN LA! THEN WHY IS IT CALLED A BLOOD TEST?!?!"
i almost died on the spot.
but brave me gritted my teeth and sat through the whole entire ordeal. i swear, they had no injections or the syringe-like thingies to draw blood. what the nurse did was to poke a tiny hole in my finger with a needle, and then squeezed a whole lot of blood out from that tiny hole, into a tube. wtf!!!!!!!

but thank god, the blood test and CAT scan were okay, and the doctor said nothing seems to be wrong. i still feel kind of hazy though. like a mind fog kinda thing in my brain. and i can't explain it. only kenny understands (more on that later). help!!



p.s. doctor said it might be malnutrition or the weather or lack of rest. pray for me that its minor things like that okay! and i promise to start eating some vegetables from now on.

p.p.s. can't wait for hubby and mummy to come save me soon! they're both coming in two weeks to visit. yay yay yay :D

psychobabble

just read des' blog (I MISS YOU HONEY!!), and her dream which haunts her is the Airport Dream, i.e. i think she keeps dreaming that she misses her flight. mine is the Shopping Dream, where i always dream that i pick out a lot of lovely stuff to buy, and the store closes 1 second before i can reach the cashier.

help us, freud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what's YOUR dream? :)

please find me a cure

the low blood glucose illness i have is leaving me on a perpetual high. i know not when i do what i do. time perception is screwed. dizziness accompanies me most of the day. something is really wrong huh. and i don't know how to tell anyone or they'll think i'm over-reacting.

kids, remember to take your meals regularly.

wild child

the housemates took a weekend trip to suzhou. i declined to go because they were taking the bus there and i get motion sickness. plus they were going to do things like climb mountains (?) and visit gardens, and i'm not really an outdoor person. so i'm home alone this weekend!

sam, ronald, nengjin, shanjin, etc, are at attica now. amy jes and pam are at a live band bar now. i declined to go because i was scared that i would have to come home late alone to an empty house.

so today i did some solo-shopping in my neighborhood, went to the shanghai art museum by myself (lovely art pieces should be admired alone!), had dinner at this pretty qibao place with ron sam and amy, and now i'm alone at home cleaning up, doing the laundry, chatting to hubby on msn, and gonna watch some dvds later. i enjoyed the day very very much. i'm such a good girl now sometimes i amaze myself.

五月的天...

i found his old friendster account from 2 years back, and started reading the testimonials. i was shocked. some examples:

(edited for bad english. im a grammar/spelling nazi, sorry!)

girl 1. "Stay happy happy k ? But if u are not happy u can tell me, i will look after u and make u happy....hee hee....oops...There're alot of girls who want to look after u, u must feel lucky....i'm so honoured to receive ur testimonial!!!"

girl 2. "~*~when it's cold & dark at night, and we're alone together,i long to take u in my arms, n cuddle you forever. MY little hamsTer..where are you??"

girl 3. "this charming guy (i think most girls would think so) happens to be my junior.. i remember the 1st time we met.. he said hi to me and i was rather SHOCKED... why? i don't know... but my heartbeat was lost once. hehe... he made me change my opinion towards guys... (to me, guys like him just like to play around..) haha.. so after chatting with him... i totally changed my view... :) i enjoy chatting with him.. his useful advise really helps me to get over many of my problems..."

guy 4. "how time flies, its beeen six years since we were classmates. i still remember this really tall dude that stood out from among all the guys, with floppy hair and an incredible sense of humour. i bet all the female teachers were mesmerised by u!"

girl 5. "This super handsome and suave Houston.. Exudes this special charm, which i cant explain, which makes me anxious when i see him. Haha~! Maybe i'm one of those little girls whom he has mesmerized? Dunno. Ha~! He.. dresses well, presents himself too well and best of all, is smart~! Muack. =)"

girl 6. "he's a really generous guy, always lends people money without getting it back. aiyah, cos he's rich.. so if anyone wants to borrow money, please borrow from this guy here! haha, i don't have to spell it out for everyone to know that he is damn charming la..no wonder can get so many girls falling for u right..dunno how many
girls got their hearts broken by him already..stop attracting girls la..haha but to be fair, he'll make a good bf when he's serious la MR CHARMING!"

girl 7. "well this guy here is a River Valley senior of mine and he always attracts bees wherever he goes.. he has this indescribable personality that makes girls go ga ga over him.. and he is definitely one gentleman that you won't want to miss out on. haha i think he is a friend that is loyal and trustworthy.. "

girl 8. "Used to think that he was cute in RV, I will forever remember his centre-parting hair n that goody-two-shoes look... Now, I think he's really handsome n cool. (I can see ur head swelling... =) Haha) Never talked to him in RV before, thought he was very unapproachable cos he was forever surrounded by girls... "

girl 9: "I will never forget the day we knew each other. i feel so fortunate. Hehe.. Really miss the days when we went out together. Feel that you are very caring and thoughtful..Hmm, in my mind, it was like he came out of the television.. Ohh, not sadako! but he was just like a superstar.. "Dao Ming Si". Feel so jealous when girls
are around this boy, heehee. Unfortunately, after my school reopened, i haven't seen you for a long time. Hope to keep in touch with you again. Take care..and miss u."

girl 10: "When I first saw him, it was on the dance floor.. Was attracted by his cool appearance and his unique dancing. So I told myself I must get to know this person or I will regret it. And till now, I have not regretted knowing this friend of mine. He has many goals in life and knows what he wants and what is good for him. He is very kind to his friends and generous too."

okay enough... please multiply that by 100 and you get the idea.




thing is, why has he changed so much for me? its scary. i dont even see a trace of a charmer, a guy who's "forever surrounded by girls", or even someone suave haha. we've lived together for more than half a year, and i realised he doesn't even have a single friend who is a girl now. he's willingly changed his phone numbers, deleted his email addresses, gave up his friendster/nightlife/msn/whatever accounts, lets me know what exactly he's doing every hour of the day, and the guy in front of me is the most devoted, sweetest, most loving boyfriend in the world. he always claims that i don't appreciate the sacrifices he's made for me, but now i think i see part of it.

anyway tomorrow marks the 14th month we will be together, and i know im blessed for having you in my life hubby :)

our long-distance relationship

a typical day between houston and i:

morning call/sms
lunchtime call
periodic lovey-dovey sms-es throughout the day
chatting on msn while i'm at work
after-work call
chatting on msn when i come home
goodnight loooong chat on the phone
(bonus: he makes it a point to sing a different song for me everynight before i sleep)


i'm satisfied with the contact :)

but still i really really miss home. maybe its the hypoglycaemia (yes after 3 days, i'm still bloody suffering from it. help?), maybe its the stupid news from school (don't ask.), maybe its the emo-ness from pms, maybe its my lousy teeth, maybe its the people here, maybe its the fact that houston has a corneal ulcer... but i find myself counting down to the time i come home. this isn't supposed to happen. SIGH.

can someone help?!?!?!

THIS IS HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!

ive always prided myself on my perfect teeth (okay thanks to braces but never mind haha), but yesterday i looked in the mirror and found out that my teeth have lost their alignment and one tiny bottom tooth is jutting out (?!?!?!?). OMG. FUGLYYYYYYYYY. blame my bloody laziness and not putting on my retainers religiously every night. i. need. an. emergency. trip. to. my. dentist. now. and he's all the way in singapore. great.

we were made for summer dreaming

so i ended up having time-perception distortions, headaches, nausea, and blurred vision the whole of yesterday. how bizarre right. the office people very nicely offered to let me sleep in the office and then go home early :) but in the end zhi and i just stayed all the way and took a cab home. my housemate helped me look up my illness, and he diagnosed it as hypoglycaemia (go google it!). so i spent the whole of last night having my white wine/cheese fix, watching this taiwan variety show guessguessguess, reading, and chatting with hubby on the phone for hours. i think his phone bills are going to die soon. haha.

feeling better today, but due to a series of most unfortunate events, i've decided to stay home. alone. a nice feeling really, what with the past month of living under a roof with 4 people who you are completely un-accustomed to living with (its good now though, dont worry) :) i think i shall go take a bath, wander/shop around my chinese neighborhood, grab some lunch, and then perhaps sit down with some nice dvds and a good book.

on a separate note altogether, how do you describe this feeling i feel now? almost like the bad feeling in the pit of your tummy that arises from a break-up, but not quite. its just that both parties do not love each other as much, the power is and has always been in the other party's hands, the break-up has resulted entirely from fault of mine (although i did try really hard to salvage it towards the later stages), and now there is nothing much i can do but sit, mope and accept this fate. the consolation though, is that after the break-up, the alternatives are endless endless endless. the world is my stage after all, and as everyone tells me, if all else fails, there's always the parents' company to fall back on. haha. for not believing in me, its their loss not mine :)

(and no, im not talking about houston, thank you)

its all been done before

hello kids!!! :) how was your weekend? mine was great except in line with my "spend like a foreigner on weekends" thing, i blew like RMB$700++ over 3 days (which is quite a lot in chinese terms haha) - lovely italian food and midnight ktv for 5 hours straight on friday, pizza and clubbing at park97 with the smu peeps on saturday night, and then whole day shopping on sunday. heehee. i'll post pics up soon!!! :)

anyways i'm having a TERRIBLE terrible craving for sashimi. normally cant go without it for more than 2 weeks, and here in china it's been A MONTH. sigh. :( been too caught up with the xiaolongbaos in china i think, and forgot all about the lovely jap cuisine. eeks. and yesterday i had white wine+cheese craving, and got some of those at the supermarket next door. whats with all these cravings... its either the pms or pregnancy. since they're mutually exclusive and shanghai has made me pretty much VERY celibate, i think its the former. hahaha! kidding only :p

ohoh and ive just been relocated to a nice little room in the office with zhi. yays. its great cos i have tons of privacy doing my own stuff like surfing, blogging (like now), msning, reading my trashy chicklit etc, without feeling guilt or the fear of getting caught. bwahahaha. just hope they dont find this blog.

lastly, SHOUTOUT to HALIMAMAMAMAMMA. happy birthday darling, love you tons and i realllllyyyyyy wish i was there at your brithday chalet :( though i trust that you had lots of fun. sending you HUGS and KISSES from shanghai!!!

my eyes are having trouble seeing suddenly and i feel faint (???), so i'm offoffoff. c'yall!!





p.s. ive come to realise i cannot stand anality in people (c.f. freud). nononono. clara and them dont mix well.

"live like a local on the weekdays, spend like a foreigner on the weekends."

and that's my motto for the three months here. :) except i don't think locals do quite that much shopping. haha.

my lunch today (all figures in SGD):
bubble tea - SGD$0.60
8 pieces of xiaolongbaos - $0.60
pretty gray dress - $20
3 sets of bra straps - $3
2 cuteeee undies - $2

ahem ahem. we can even manage to find things to buy in the CBD area of shanghai. loving the life here, really.

and in line with my motto, i am SO looking forward to the weekend. monday you can fall apart, tuesday wednesday break my heart, thursday doesnt even start, it's FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

谢谢爱

actually this is my favourite favorite song of the moment but i didnt wanna share it. :p hahaha. anyways i figured, what the heck. nice things should be shared :) and yes, i've become one of those girls that paste lyrics on their blog. but only like, once in a very very very blue moon! hahahahaha.


(caution: lots of chinese up ahead. please skip if you are adverse to mandarin characters)

"雨下好乱 半个夜晚
你不在身边怎么晚安?
天好蓝 要和你一起看
起风时 由你来温暖.

心事简单 一句说完:
要我们永远不会分开.
有眼泪 也因为你灿烂
你微笑因为我盛开.

要谢谢爱
让你在我身边守护我的未来.
有多少美丽奇迹 你手心里全都记载...
好期待.

要谢谢爱
让我学会宽容学会体谅关怀.
像阳光陪着大海
是平静还是澎湃 都是爱... "

-sister garden

i can't explain a lot of things..... but thanks to houston for really letting me understand what this thing called love is. and for letting me have someone to truly sing this song to. 谢谢 :)

夜上海

DAMN SLEEEPY!!!!!!

have been sleeping late nights since friday. it was alright during the weekend, but come the weekday, when i have to wake up at 7 bloody 30 a.m in the morning for work, is when i start dying.

anyway since everyone's been asking me how shanghai is, here's a look at my late (but fun) nights and days:

friday - work in the day, clubbing at guandii at night. one of the pretty okayish clubs in shanghai, about SGD$20 for entry. and it also happens to be the first time i ever paid for a club!!!!!!!!! :( and the people there: damn hot chicks and fugly guys. the worst combination. hahahaha. but well the music was good and the company was nice, so im not complaining :)

saturday - LOVELY lovely lovely xiaolongbaos at yuyuan gardens. we didnt want to queue with the chinese, so we went for the higher end xiaolongbaos, think crab, meat, or roe filling. yum yum. after that it was off to the tailors, where i went to make a few shirts for work, and then to somewhere off nanjingxi lu for great food. oysters, scallops, mango pudding. and i only spent like SGD$6 bucks for that. are you dying yet? hahaha.

sunday: damn good shopping with great buys. but i'm not sharing and i won't tell you where. lalala. its like a secret haven, only for the privileged. hahahaha. after that it was mahjong at our friend's cool place till lateeee. chinese mahjong, how fun. hahaha. me and zhi both lost $97RMB, but they were nice enough not to collect it from us in the end :) hehe.

last night:
invited our wonderfal friends, sam, pam, and ronald for dinner at our place! me and zhi had a rather stressful but fun time whipping up dinner and cleaning up the house in like, only 45mins or something. dont die of shock darlings. i mainly cleaned up the whole house by myself (yes its my first time doing housework, happy?! hahaha) and helped zhi with the tofu and steaming the dumplings (also my first time cooking) hahaha. we cooked: egghamcheesetofu omelette + chinese 饺子 + white chicken + broccoli/carrots. umm doesnt sound too appetizing but it was k!!

and after dinner we opened a bottle of 女儿红 (some chinese alcoholic drink. i dont even know if its the right spelling in chinese, but for my lesser inclined friends I.E. CHEECH, i think it translates to red girl??) courtesy of our guests, and just chilled together, watching sex and the city. how absolutely fun.

i think we're making this a regular thing too, so the other three are coming over to our place to cook dinner for us and our housemates soon. isnt it great to have a kickass apartment? everyone just comes! and i absolutely love having friends over and playing hostess. i can totally see myself and my hubby in a few years having friends over to our place for dinner parties all the time. except i think i will order takeout for dinner, or maybe just change them to wine parties. hahaha.

我爱刘亚霖

once upon a time, in the land of religious Tibet, where monks are known to be chaste and holy, there were 2 tibetian monks, monk ganaa and monk mong, who were trying to get to the town of Ulanbaataar (UB).

to get to the town of UB from their tiny temple in the village, they had to cross a bridge and a mountain. it must be said that the bridge was known to be especially rickety and unstable. it was so famously difficult to cross, that sometimes villagers could be seen lingering at the foot of the bridge, waiting for help across the river, for they dare not cross it alone. luckily for monk ganaa and monk mong, monks are well trained in balance and the fine art of bridge-crossing, and they were fairly confident about this whole bridge-crossing thing.

so monk ganaa and monk mong arrived at the foot of the bridge, and who should they see but a hot, sexy, provocatively-dressed woman. the most appropriate English word to describe her is actually, well, "Slut", but unfortunately in tibetian language there is no equivalent word. so anyways. there she was, standing there at the foot of the bridge, looking sluttily helpless.

"help me monks!", she turned to monk ganaa, "would you carry me across the bridge please?" monk ganaa, a really anal guy, turned pale with shock. "CARRY YOU? oh my god. that is blasphemous! we holy monks are absolutely not allowed to have contact with a woman's flesh. GO AWAY. NOW.", he replied, seething with anger.

the woman now seemed really desperate. she decided to try her luck with monk mong. "will you help me monkie? please please please? i really do have to cross!" monk mong stood there, deliberating for the longest time. then, without a word, he bent down, hoisted her upon his back, and with impressive grace and balance, transported her across the bridge, and let her off on her way.

needless to say, monk ganaa was real pissed. real. freaking. pissed. he stormed across the bridge, grabbed monk mong by his religious robe, and SCREAMED at him. "you know that we are not supposed to touch a girl. how could you do such an obscene act? you have let our entire monastry down!!!" yada yada yada he nagged for hours, all the way up the mountain, all the way down the mountain.

finally, monk mong turned to mong ganaa. monk mong began, "i have just carried her across the bridge. why are you carrying her all the way through the mountain?"



***


and that, my dears is a story that our super nice lawyer colleague told us during our 2.5hour lunch today, edited by me of course. hahaha. all resemblance to any characters living or dead are purely fictitious, and of course there is no town of UB in tibet. its in mongolia. heehee.

but seriously, i thought it was a great story that i had to share. let it all go dears. don't hang on unneccessarily to things if you can let them go, don't be so hard on yourself and the people around you. life is short enough as it is, so try to make it a short and a happy one for yourself :)



p.s. this story is especially for qiuting :)
p.p.s. yes i'm at work now, and i managed to type this story. yes i am this free.

on love

when the world goes wrong with everything and everyone, its times like this that i'm really grateful for having houston around. what was it that ts eliot said? he's my still point in the turning world, and i know he will always be there for me.

"At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is,
But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity,
Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards,
Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point,
There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.
I can only say, there we have been: but I cannot say where.
And I cannot say, how long, for that is to place it in time....

Yet the enchainment of past and future
Woven in the weakness of the changing body,
Protects mankind from heaven and damnation
Which flesh cannot endure.

Time past and time future
Allow but a little consciousness.
To be conscious is not to be in time
But only in time can the moment in the rose-garden,
The moment in the arbour where the rain beat,
The moment in the draughty church at smokefall
Be remembered; involved with past and future.
Only through time time is conquered."

-TS Eliot

i love you hubbybunny.

it's friday i'm in love :)

and THIS is my new hair. hahaha. i know it doesn't look too different (think the flash makes it look brown but its actually blacker in person) and i kinda look weird in that pic, but i like it verymuch. yay. black is the new black :)


(p.s. you know everyone in china thinks we're either korean or jap, goodness knows why, and we havent bothered to correct anyone so far. so yesterday when the salon guys asked us if we were korean again, we accidentally said yes, not knowing that we would be in the salon for THREE hours, fielding off lots of questions like "so whats the korean currency exchange rate now?" "which korean stars do you like?" "how much is the price of a haircut/movie/whatever in korea?" "what kind of food do you eat in korea?" etc etc. we didnt know shit, and so i just kept harping on bae yong jun and the drama serial my name is samsoon, which are like the only korean things i know (and i dont even like bae yong jun!). bwahaha. what a phoney.

"要谢谢爱让你 在我身边守护我的未来"

yesterday was letting us off from work at 3pm so we could catch up on sleep, and today its super spicy bakua from our wonderful colleague + our boss asking the singapore office (where our translation is supposed to go to) for an extension of deadline for us :) i love khattarwong (shanghai)!!

anyway thanks to the extension i think we're meeting our housemates for drinks at the Bund (read: 上海滩）after work later. yays.

p.s. i have a famously short attention span when it comes to my hair. and now i've had quite enough of my whatever-hair, been carrying this color about 6 months already. i've decided to dye my hair BLACK. and get a fringe maybe. i think i might go after work if the lovely shirley at our office has enough cash to forward our pay :) its too late to stop me!! bwahahaha.

okay you know im bored when i'm obsessively blogging

hahaha i think this is a big joke but apparently a few people think i look like elva hsiao (?!?!), like this conversation i just had on msn:

(Yane, my friend's friend, is looking at my friendster)
Yane 说: yes u look abit thai actually
Yane 说: picture 15 is elva la. its not u
Yane 说: i dun tink u know who's elva anyway ha nvm
carrie! 说: haha oh quite a few ppl told me i look like her so i went to the cd store a few days back to see what she looks like
carrie! 说: and she's so pretty!! doesnt look like me at all!!! hahaha
Yane 说: u can be the thai version
Yane 说: she is beautiful of cos, but pic 15 is like exactly her
Yane 说: either way lookin like her is a compliment
Yane 说: all the testerone filled sch boys like her
Yane 说: so ure fortunate, can go melt all the china boys

1. did you realise all my "carrie says" became "carrie! 说"?? thats so lame! hahaha
2. i SO do not look like her thank you. of course i will be happy if you continue telling me that, but i dont want to go around deluding myself haha
3. NO china guys are melted by me. seriously. its been 2 weeks in shanghai and we haven't even been picked up yet, not even in the club. hahaha. anyway i think i prefer the taiwanese. specifically, just houston (and jerry yen). bwahaha.
4. this is picture 15:

thank you :)

i've never worked so hard in my life!

so we slept at 2am last night rushing for the deadline. blooody translations! for the past 3 nights, i've slept a total of 15 hours, and have had to actually do work during the WEEKEND. that is so not me, and so unlike any other intern in shanghai (except for zhi of course haha). everyone i know is either slacking, slacking, or slacking. eeks. oh ya, not to mention i fell asleep at my desk today from utter sleepiness. heehee. thank god the people in our office are SO nice, and i think our colleague is going to ask our boss to let us go home after lunch to catch up on sleep. and someone just bought cake for us, and our boss keeps giving us apples and ice-cream to "reward" us. yay. i love work :)

high in shanghigh

haha i havent been blogging much cos my days have been way too packed. chinese ktv, chinese clubbing, lovely lovely chinese dinners at the best hongkong restaurant in shanghai (or so our china friend says) in 新天地, and lots more, have been making our days pretty lovely :) on the other hand, couple all that with plenty of IDIOTIC translations, and that makes me a very very busy girl.

anyway, to add to the china mood, here's my current favorite song:

"人间 by faye wong

风雨过后不一定有美好的天空
不是天晴就会有彩虹
所以你一脸无辜不代表你懵懂

不是所有感情都会有始有终
孤独尽头不一定惶恐
可生命总免不了最初的一阵痛

但愿你的眼睛只看得到笑容
但愿你流下每一滴泪都让人感动
但愿你以后每一个梦不会一场空

天上人间如果真值得歌颂
也是因为有你才会变得闹哄哄
天大地大世界比你想像中朦胧
我不忍心再欺哄但愿你听得懂

但愿你会懂该何去何从"

for memory sake

we translated this whole chunk:

"投资人应在本合同签订之日其5个工作日向项目公司投入注册资本250万美元，其余按照如皋是外上投资企业设立审批机关批复的投资金额时间向项目公司实际，完全缴纳注册资本。"

to this:

"5.8.2. Initial Registration Fees

5.8.2.1. Upon 5 working days of the contract date, the investor should pay a registration capital of USD 2,500,000 to the company. The remaining amount has to be paid in full, according to the Rugao Foreign Investment Unit, during the time stipulated by the subsidiary of the Rugao Foreign Investment Unit."

and more...

"6. Construction of Project
6.9. Rights to Land Use

6.9.1. The respective contractual parties acknowledge that all underground resources belong to the People’s Republic of China. The use of land in this project is limited to the terms of this contract.

6.9.2. Contractual parties agree that the water treatment plant and other rights concerning land use can be rightly recognized by the People’s Republic of China. Once it is legally recognized, the buyer, in accordance with the country’s relevant regulations, will pay the necessary reimbursements.

6.9.3. The location, boundaries, and size of the relevant land, is reflected in the information printed in “Country’s Land Use Rights”.

6.9.4. The buyer guarantees:

a) In the event that the company pays the buyer a lease amount, the buyer should present the company with the national land use permit within 15 working days of the payment period.
b) In the project’s franchise period (inclusive of but not limited to, the franchise permit, under any circumstances), the company is not liable to pay any pre-departure expenditure, or any other aspects related to the rights to land use
c)The company’s attainment of the rights to land use, is a legal, complete, and indisputable right, and the buyer has to bear all legal and economic responsibilities."

the translation's not perfect and the legal terms are not quite there but still. amazing isn't it? haha :)

ilovelawyers

hello! haha i know im obssessively blogging but im sure you guys won't mind :) its now 2.45pm and we just came back from lunch. the big boss from the khattarwong singapore office is in shanghai, and he decided to take us little interns along for lunch. so along came the other big bosses, and so me and zhi ended up being treated to a wonderful meal at some highclass chinese restaurant with some bigshot lawyers. teehee. they also mentioned something about taking us to tibet (??) for a company excursion, as well as around shanghai, so yupsss i think we are very blessed :)

anyways something i've learnt today, which also happens to be something everyone in china keeps telling me, is that: you can do without a lot of things, but one thing you can't do without is "关系", ie networking, cos it really gets you places. other than the hypocrisy, i think i quite like this whole doing-business thing actually. networking is a great justification for slacking and taking nice lunches :) or alternatively, i wouldn't mind being a taitai who accompanies her hubby to his business lunches, and then have my own afternoon-teas with fellow taitais. hahaha.

lost in translation

HIYA GUYS!!!!!!!!! i'm blogging from the office and although all the words in my work laptop's in chinese, i'm not complaining :)

work's been really quite fun and slack. starts at 9 and ends at 5-ish. and almost everyone comes late (is it a lawyer thing??) so although we missed a train and woke up at 7.30am. we managed to be the earliest ones. i think they love us :)

but anyways, you wont believe what we've been made to do here at work. everyone at home will be shocked to learn that clara is supposed to be doing.... TRANSLATION! by this i mean translating chinese documents into english. and its not just any normal chinese documents mind you, it's chinese LEGAL DOCUMENTS. crap. my A- for buisness law isnt really serving me well here, all i remember of those legal terms are... estoppel. and i dont even know what it means. omg, help. and my mandarin. i dont even want to begin mentioning how atrocious it is. but thank god for having zhi here! she reads out the chinese words and translates into english, and i help and type it out. hehehe. i think my mandarin is improving though.

so yeah. i still miss and love everyone at home! just doesn't feel the same without my hubby bunny hugging me to sleep at night, my baby doggy's cuteness, my family's constant care and concern for me at home, hanging out with all my sg friends, and my travis of course. oh god. i miss driving. taking the china metro is. like. hell.




p.s. i got my GPA and while my current GPA for this semester is 3.92, my cumulative GPA is only a bloody 3.33. so im kinda still worried about the status of my scholarship. sigh. pray for me darlings.

update from china!!

helllllllllllllllllloooooooooo. i dont know if you guys still check this, but it turns out that china doesnt ban blogspot at all!!!!!!!!!!!!! or at least, my condo clubhouse doesn't. hahaha. im currently sitting here leeching off their internet, cos our apartment won't be set up with wireless access until wednesday.

anyways darlings don't be worried about me, cos my condo is really great!! with zhi, we're sharing with 2 other really nice guy housemates, who take really good care of us. its off linping road, just like a 5 minute walk away from the MRT station, 5 minute walk from starbucks, KFC, watsons, E-mart (a carrefour-like hypermart), etc. also think tennis courts, tabletennis rooms, family movie theatre, sauna, gym, aerobics class, indoor and outdoor swimming pool, etc at the clubhouse. the apartment's well furnished too, we've got aircondition, heater, bathtub, a pretty balcony, etc. i could go on forever but you'll be bored. hahaha. to the people i love, you can come bunk here if you are in shanghai. you know who you are.

other than that, china's alright. our condo location's about a few mrt stops away from our office. we work at shanghai stock exchange building, so visit me if you happen to be there. work's starting tomorrow so quite sian!! i miss everyone at home, my lovely lovely family, my wonderful bf, my baby honey sweetie pie doggy, travis my gorgeous car, and my great friends. also thanks to my family, bf, and wonderful ptms for sending me off although it was sooooooo early. i love all of you.

will try to update again as soon as i can!!!!!!

goodbye for now!

HELLO HONEYS. thanks amanda for reminding me. CHINA BANS BLOGSPOT ADDRESSES, so i'll be unable to update here for the next three months! my god, almost makes me wish i didnt get the shanghai internship (how can i bear not getting my daily updates from trent!!). URGH.

anyways, ive created a blog you guys can check for the next three months. address is here. however, if china also bans wordpress (#$#@$!!!), friends and close ones may check here too.

flight's in 12 hours so i've gotta run. much lovexoxo

in a pensive mood

i've postponed my flight to a day later. seems right cos it seems like i have some unfinished business left here in sg. only problem is, i have no idea what this unfinished business is. eeks. probably something to do with the likes of packing my damn luggage and spending more time with family and friends and hubby and doggy. quality time i mean. :)

i know i ought to and probably will have lots of fun in shanghai, but im feeling quite a bit of inertia about leaving this place. seems like it happens a lot to me huh. well if i didnt have such a wonderful life in sg i probably wouldnt be that sad. the thing is, i do, and so i find that few things can replace the happiness this life here brings me.

shanghai, baby?

because my nick is now "SHANGHAI BABY!!", and because i haven't been on msn in about 10 months:

PIU says: (AM 12:58)
wah fuck
PIU says: (AM 12:58)
i dun see u for 10 mths
PIU says: (AM 12:58)
then when u come on
PIU says: (AM 12:58)
u're a hooker in shanghai
PIU says: (AM 12:58)
i wanna die
12:59 The system is unavailable now so you have been signed out of Microsoft Messenger.

hahaha. my msn sucks ass. it disconnects me every 2 minutes so i cant even have a decent conversation with anyone. bahhh. mac users any ideas why? :'( i didnt see the need to get the problem fixed since i hate msn and dont use it anyway, but now that im about to leave for shanghai it seems that this problem is a very, very big one. sigh.



p.s. im having a bloody terrible time packing! keep inhaling dust and getting asthma attacks. retarded. and it just seems like im dumping my whole wardrobe into my ginormous luggage. i think it now weighs 40 kg. help

我明白 我要的爱 会把我宠坏

aight, enough of the mushiness. seeing as i have about 108 hours till my flight, its now time for some serious planning and list-making.

for the three months in shanghai, i resolve to:
1. know myself in greater depth
2. learn new things about the culture every day
3. make new friends
4. lose weight. dear god, please give me back my 39kg weight. thank you. (note: our shanghai condo has a bloody swimming pool, tennis courts, and gym i think, so i damn well better make full use of them haha)
5. finish at least 1 book every two weeks
6. go for massages/foot reflexology at least once every two weeks
7. stop biting my nails so i can go for pretty manicures
8. improve/maintain my complexion. stay fair or get fairer. ABSOLUTELY NO TOUCHING THE SUN.
9. have an outstanding internship :)
10. build a stronger relationship with zhi, my roomie, and sam (WHO I JUST LEARNT IS GOING TO SHANGHAI TOO!!!!!!!!!)
11. keep in touch and continue to love all at home :)
13. learn independance and improve myself
14. coerce all at home/whatever parts of the world you are in, to come and visit me
15. not get killed, raped, or robbed

whew. sounds daunting. but i think shanghai is the perfect place to accomplish all these goals :)

xoxoxo

you know, its been more than a year that we've gotten together, and spending time with him is something i get to enjoy everyday. watching soccer on his lap, hugging in bed watching dvds, window shopping in town, shopping with him carrying my loads of bags, exciting travels together, car rides for fun, late night suppers, sleeping in his arms, mugging together... this is what we do every single day. and still the quarrels are pretty rare for two people who see each other on average 20/24 hours a day.

i've come to take this happiness and the time spent together for granted. he dotes on me, does mostly everything i ask him to as long as i ask him sweetly (or resort to tears if neccessary haha), spends his money on me when he has it, never exerts horrible pressure on me to conform, or change. all these i know. and yet at times my friends and i still doubt his love for me.

i'm leaving for shanghai in four days. and it is now i know that i will truly miss him. in the three months that i'll be gone, i dont think anything will ever replace having him by my side. i love you hubby if you ever see this :)